My Story: How Spiritual Awakening Leads To Nothing More Than An Authentic Human

There comes a time in life where resistance becomes too exhausting, where the current of life grows so strong that you are no longer able to swim against it. That is when awakening truly begins—not as an abstract concept, but as a lived experience. This is the story of how spiritual awakening revealed to me the profound freedom of authenticity, and how I came to see that love is the foundation of all things.

The Current of Life Is Always Moving

Life, in its infinite wisdom, never pauses. It keeps unfolding, moment after moment, breath after breath. We can resist, swim upstream, and try to control it—or we can surrender, let go, and allow the current to carry us into the unknown. For many years, I fought this without even being aware that I was doing so. Sometimes, I’d surrender and let myself float. Other times, I'd push back out of fear or misunderstanding. But eventually, the current became too stormy, too intense. I had no choice but to surrender completely, to curl up at the bottom of my boat and let life take me.

What happened next was not a dramatic event on the outside, but a radical transformation within. Life began to reveal itself to me in ways I never expected. What once felt like a dark room lit only by a small flashlight turned into a vivid landscape of insight. I realized that I had been seeing only slivers of reality, pieces of a puzzle lit by the narrow beam of my conditioned awareness. But then came the shift—an unseeable became seen, and once seen, could never be unseen.

Awakening Through Motherhood

A pivotal moment came in 2015 with the birth of my son. During his birth I was lifted out of my physical body and from that moment the boundaries between myself and life began to dissolve. I wasn’t just thinking about reality anymore; I was immersed in it. I could feel the interconnectedness of all things. I was flooded with an immense sense of love—raw, boundless, unconditional.

Yet, with this new level of awareness came deep realizations. I saw the emotional pain and mental patterns I had carried for years, the invisible walls I had built around myself for protection. I had such a deep wish to be as clean as possible towards my children and so, at first for their sake, every night before bed, I made a quiet commitment to myself. I listened to the whispers of my soul, I held space for the parts of me I had hidden, and I began to offer myself the same love I had so freely given to others.

This wasn't therapy. It wasn't even a "spiritual practice" in the traditional sense. It was simply an inner listening and receiving, an opening of gentleness and a reconnection with all of me.

Glimpses of the Infinite

Between 2015 and 2020, I had what I could at the time only describe as mystical experiences. I would read words in books that lit a fire in my chest. I cried tears of bliss without understanding why, simply because something deep inside me recognized the truth I was reading. I had days when I saw light emanating from people and things, moments when I merged with everything, when my sense of being dissolved into a quiet, vast awareness.

At the time, these experiences felt extraordinary. But now, I see them for what they truly were: glimpses of my natural state. That unconditional, ever-present awareness was always there—I had simply forgotten.

Then, in early 2020, a powerful shift occurred. I felt an energy pressing from within, as if my soul was knocking at the door, ready to move to the forefront of my experience. The next day, something cracked wide open. I felt a surge of energy and light, and since then, I no longer feel confined to my body. Instead, I exist as an orb of energy surrounding it—infinitely expansive and free.

And yet, at the same time, I am still me. Still the same clumsy, silly human I have always been. Something that I hold now in the utmost sacrecy . An experience I feel blessed to have.

The Gift of Being Yourself

One of the most profound realizations from this experience was that nothing needed to change. My path to awakening wasn’t about becoming someone different. It was about being fully myself. The key to the expanding sense of liberation I had tapped into wasn’t transcendence or perfection—it was truth. It was authenticity.

My life circumstances didn’t change dramatically, but my perception did. I stopped viewing my quirks and challenges as flaws. I began to understand that our human experience, just as it is, holds the keys to our spiritual awakening.

And here’s the message I believe we are all being called to hear: You are loved exactly as you are.

Let that sink in for a moment. Not as you should be, not as you wish to be, but as you are right now. This love doesn’t depend on your alignment, your performance, or your spiritual progress. It simply is. Whether you’re feeling lost or enlightened, this love surrounds you. It’s like a rain of grace, always falling—whether you feel it or not.

You Cannot Fail at Life

We’ve been taught to believe that life is a test, and that we can fail if we don’t “get it right.” But what if this isn’t true? What if creation itself holds no judgment, only love? What if we are never out of alignment with our true nature—we’re just temporarily unaware of it?

Realizing this changes everything. If you can’t fail at life, you can stop over-strategizing and start simply living. You can drop the need to earn love or prove your worth. You can let go of the belief that you need to fix yourself before you’re worthy of grace.

The Ego’s Last Stand

Of course, this kind of love terrifies the ego. There’s a part of us—conditioned by years of criticism and survival—that believes we must earn love. This part resists grace because grace undoes the entire game. The moment we accept that we are inherently worthy, this ego-construct loses control.

I spent months immersed in grace and still had moments where a voice inside tried to convince me I didn’t deserve it. But eventually, I surrendered. I said yes to love that held no opposites. A love that didn’t care whether I was light or dark, joyful or confused. A love that didn’t need me to be anyone but who I truly was.

Authenticity Is Awakening

This is the heart of spiritual awakening: the return to your authentic self. When you stop resisting what is and start living from truth, vulnerability, and love, something miraculous happens. Life becomes not a problem to solve, but a dance to enjoy.

You don’t have to patch yourself up or edit your story to be lovable. You don’t have to hide your fear or confusion. Everything you are is welcome. Everything you are is divine.

Authenticity doesn’t mean perfection. It means presence. It means saying, “This is where I am right now, and that’s enough.”

We Are All on This Journey Together

I want to be clear: There is nothing special about me. I’ve felt pain, fear, and unworthiness—just like you. I’ve doubted myself and questioned my path. But in sharing my story, I hope to open a door for you to walk through. You don’t need to change. You just need to remember.

You already contain the universe within you. And your way of moving through life—messy, radiant, confused, clear—is not wrong. It’s yours. That’s what makes it sacred.

The Peace Beneath It All

When we allow ourselves to be raw and real, we uncover a peace that lives beneath all our experience. This peace is not something we create—it’s something we return to. It’s the space from which all things arise, and into which all things dissolve.

This peace is home.

Relax Into Yourself

So here is my invitation to you: Relax. Rest into yourself. Trust your own rhythm. You don’t need to transcend your humanity to discover your divinity. Your humanity is the doorway.

Your tears are sacred. Your confusion is sacred. Your laughter, your silence, your struggle—they’re all part of the beautiful improvisation that is your life.

Let your authenticity lead the way. Let your heart be cracked open. Let yourself be seen. Because when you live from your truth, you awaken—not into something new, but into who you’ve been all along.

You are not separate from the divine. You are an expression of it.

And that, my friend, is more than enough.